I'm Letting Go....

For 25 years I have held onto the belief that God did not cause my brother's drowning.  I have dug my heels in and resisted any study, reading, teaching that might suggest otherwise.

In a current book study, "Restless", by Jennie Allen, the story of Joseph is highlighted.  A particular portion of his story that I can't let go is in Genesis 50: 19-21.  "But Joseph said to them, "Don't be afraid.  Am I in the place of God?  You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.  So then, don't be afraid.  I will provide for you and your children.  And he reassured them and spoke kindly to them." (For the story of his brothers harm see his whole story starting in Genesis 36.)

God intended the pain in Joseph's life for the saving of many lives.  Joseph believed that God had caused the pain.

"Lord, today, I trust that you caused the pain in my life for the saving of mine and many other lives.  I'm willing to LAY DOWN my 25 yr. old, firmly held, anchored belief that you DID NOT cause my brother's drowning.  Instead, I trust you.  I trust your omniscience.  I trust your omnipotence.  I trust your omnipresence and I trust your sovereignty.

Thank you for your patience with me -- your persistence in gracefully bringing me to this day and your tenacity in never leaving me alone but instead teaching me to know, trust and love you more.

My restless soul finds rest in you."

So stinkin' cute!!

Look at her!! Can you believe it? Don't you want some of this? I am so privileged, excited and thrilled to be a Gamma!!  Three weeks old in this photo.

 

Ember Sue White born June 8, 4:06am. I was also privileged to be present for labor and delivery. That was an experience beyond description. I totally enjoyed it. She was 7 lbs 10 oz and 20" long. Papa was on hand for the official measurement.